Oh look it’s the end of February, and I’ve not updated my header for the month. Oh well, it just means that it’ll have to be extra awesome for March.

I’m slowly emerging from the deep depression that has been hanging around my neck since January. I’ve had my meds upped which has helped quite a bit, and after talking about it for years, I’ve finally started talk therapy up again after being away from it for over 20 years. I got really lucky and meshed with my guy from the get go. I’ve heard lots of horror stories regarding therapists, and I’m so grateful I’ve not had to shop around for one that can best suit my special kind of crazy.

I’ve made some poor choices over the past couple months that set off this bout of depression. These decisions have also hurt people I love and I’m now working on rebuilding trust.

There are people in my life for whom I care and love a great deal, but are not good for my current mental or spiritual well-being. Letting loved ones go is one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make. I don’t like letting go of people I care about, but sometimes it needs to be done, and I have to leave it up to the Universe to let me know if they will be part of my life again in the future. There are days I feel like my soul has been ripped out of my being.

The next couple months are probably going to be the hardest I’ve ever faced, but I have to believe that I’m going to be stronger in the end.