In six short weeks I'll be leaving D.C. to hang out with my parents for a week or so before heading to China. It's going to go really fast and I've so much to do before then (sell my stuff: desk, bike, tv, dvd player, tv table, dresser, mirror; find a home for Winnie).
The preparations are starting to get to me. Don't get me wrong I am SO EFFIN' EXCITED about going but there's so much to be done before leaving. And I'm starting to feel the strains from the stress.
On Monday I looked at the spreadsheet I made (dates I get paid, amounts of paychecks, expenses and what will go to savings), so I'd have a ballpark figure of how much money I'd have to take with me. While reviewing said spreadsheet I noticed I accidentally entered a paydate twice. What does this mean? It means that I'll have $1,000 less to put into savings than I originally thought. It means that I will be able to pay off my doctors bills, get Winnie vaccinated, set aside three months worth of payment for my student loans (not a lot) and credit card debt (a lot), but not have enough for airfare as well as not having the ablilty to take any money whatsoever with me as a safety net until we get our first paycheck.
Who had a meltdown on her birthday? Oh yes I did. And it wasn't pretty.
After a few hours of lying in bed telling Niels that maybe I should just jump off a bridge and/or he should go without me, I calmed down enough to go out for a late dinner and a couple drinks with a professor friend of ours. It was fun, got my mind off of thing. Then we got home & the intestinal issues began. I must have ingested something that did not agree with me.
So I was out sick yesterday; physically I felt gross, but was a bit better mentally.
Then I got to work this morning & couldn't stop crying for a good three hours. I'm so grateful for having an office with a door, so I wouldn't have to torment my fellow co-workers with my insanity.
The upside of all of this is that I'm hoping to get out all the freakouts before I leave so once I've landed in China I'll be cool, calm & collected.